This part feels terrible. I’ved just graduated, I have $180,000 in business school debt and living expenses owed. I have great options from BCG and some excellent names in the Valley. If I go to them, I would pay my debts within 2 years whilst living a comfortable life. I have the model in front of me and the path to middle class happiness is so clear. I could have a white picket fence within 2 years, a nice upper middle class car and the life many dream about.
On the other hand is Xendit, a startup which has won a few awards but barely anything but dreams ahead of it. We have an amazing team, people who individually were good, but our powers combined can shake the world. Our tech team is like one person with 4 hands. We have amazing potential clearly, but little traction. It constantly feels like we’re broken, though we stand in close to the light so our shadow appears bigger. It feels terrible to do the budget and see we’ll be living pretty broke until Xendit makes it.
But we got into YCombinator.
So we have to jump. But I’m saying no to some of the best jobs on the planet. As someone recently told me “Your Plan C is better than most people’s Plan As”. I’m betting on myself to be able to make Xendit work and that if it all goes belly up, I back myself to find something else.
I’ll be fine tomorrow. Today’s a down day, and I’ll be back on my feet.
